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Ok tis is wat i wud say to myself...

Dear Brendon,
What the hell are u doing to yourself?Dont be an idiot by holding on cause u know its over..Yes u may still think dere is hope but dont lie to yourself...You may have been used but forget bout it even if it tears u inside out..People may pretend to have forgotten wat they said but its very clear for everyone to see..You are a total mess right now n u gotta start picking yourself up..Its hard when one is so emotionally n physically attached but people change n u shd..So stop feeling fucked up n do something about it...U have great frens who really stand by u thru thick n thin..Soccer is dere for u to feel happy about...I guess it jus takes time(months) to forget about everything tat u both have gone thru....Forget about all the lies..It was always a case of giving n never receiving..

I feel like im pregnant..Feeling so many emotions....I dont noe why im talking about all tis but i guess its natural?Ok i need to talk to my Boohoo soon...Ciao

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