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There are things that are really bothering me and i tink i have to let it out cause i dont want to turn 17 feeling like tis anymore....Wat im about to say may hurt u but think about me alright?

It all started 2yrs ago when we sorta became frens at the camp..We talked abit here n dere but nothing really happened...After that we clicked n began talking during theX'mas period...We wud talk till de wee hours of the morning n it was really nice meeting a new fren..Soon we became close and wud meet up atleast 4times a week for lunch after school...I guess lunch was our way of showing each other we cared...talking to u made me feel at ease. problems were gone for that moment..Naturally we grew closer n i started having feelings for you but not de lovers kind..You always said i was "action-ing" tat i was popular but it was so nice to have a quiet girl who werent like de rest...I always felt tat it was so much beta tis way...Tat morning i guess we expressed our love?I always admired you for de morals u had never giving in to temptation...I really thought tat tis thing we shared bonded us together..n so last year we were very close doing things together..Everynite we wud talk non-stop...Without fail tis wud happen..You slowly became my best fren..Whenever u had a prb i was dere..Everytime u were hurt i was dere to comfort you...O's n N's were coming n it was so nice jus havin a gd fren to support me..Of course yours was de more impt one n i nv did stop showering u wth encouragements..You were a part of me n my life but things slowly changed...Now ya into a higher institution wth new frens dere to make..By all means do it but u slowly stopped talking to me once u got into it...I thot u were busy n so i gave it a few days for u to settle down..After 2weeks i wondered y u hadnt said a word..I was so hurt n distraught..I mean it was like such a new thing for me to adapt to...How can u go from talking to a person EVERY nite to jus shutting de person out of your life?Of course on de rare moments i got a reply from u,u told me tat u dint forget me..Oh yea i can see it so clearly...Well wat im trying to say is tat i really thought i meant something to you but u jus shut me off wen you started school...Felt as if a part of me got lost somewhere..Our moments really are a thing of de past now eh?

I think tmr is gonna be one of de worst feelings i ever felt on my bday..........

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